For the last 4 months I have been keeping my biggest fear right now to myself. I struggle with it every day, more times in a day then I care to count. It's the last thing I think of when I go to bed at night and it's the first thing I think of when I get up in the morning. It has become a constant with me. I can't talk to my family about it because they always say I worry too much. I agree I do worry too much but there are things in this life you can't help but worry about and this is one of them.
Like all mothers and grandmothers I worry a lot about our kids and our grand kids. I worry about any money problems that can crop up. I worry greatly about my husband's health and worry some what about mine. I worry about what is going to happen to our country since it is being run into the ground by the idiots in power. All levels of power not just one or two.
But my biggest fear right now is none of the above. What worries me the most is something that most other people may think is silly but it is something I can not help but worry about. If it happens I can only find a couple of answers for it that I hope never to have to do.
What is my biggest fear? It's moving from a home we own to a rented house. Now I know that may seem really silly but when you think about it from my stand point it might not sound so silly to you.
I feel safer being in my own home if SHTF. The banks will have a hard time making people move out of their homes if SHTF. It may not be like that if you are renting homes with the homeowners living a few miles away. They may feel they need the homes for their own families and make you move out. Oh I know we have several family members we can move in with but we have lived in our own homes for almost 40 years. Living in some other person's home is not an easy thing to live with. You have no say over anything and the truth is you don't have the right to say anything. I am not sure I could live that way again. I have not lived that way since I was a teenager living at home with my parents.
I am determined to face my fear head on and continue with the moving process. I don't know how things are going to work out in the end but I am determined to make the best of it and work as hard as I can to make sure things work out. If SHTF I will talk to the owners and promise them that I will do my best to protect their property since they can not guard the home they are living in and the one I will be living in. If we are made to move I will just have to make the same promise to who ever we move in with and share what skills I have to help them thrive and survive. One way or another I will make it work. I will hang on to my faith in God and believe he will help me get through what ever may come.
Prepping Granny