I am older and hopefully a little wiser and braver now and its time to finally let my husband have his dream of going back to the place he was born and raised for the first 10 years of his life and where most of his family still lives. Our children are all grown up now and able to take care of themselves. They have their own lives with their own families. They don't need Momma to look after them and protect them. They are old enough to do it themselves.
I am scared to death of starting over again at our ages. We are far from being spring chickens any more what with me being 56 and him 59. But if we don't do it now we never will and with his health as bad as it is I want him to have his dream life if at all possible. He has earned it after all since he put up living all these years in a place he hated just because he loves me and wanted me to be happy. I think it past time that I did the same for him.
If we can find a place where I can have a garden, some chickens, rabbits and a couple of goats I think I can be happy there. I have always been a country girl at heart and mind even though not in actions as much as I wanted to be. I never wanted to live in a town so always tried to stay out in the rural areas of small towns. For the last 18 years I have lived right in a small town. It's pretty quite here but not as quite as it is in the rural areas but not so loud that I can't handle it. Once a month I like going shopping in a big city but after 2-3 hours of all that noise and commotion I am ready to flee back to the little quite town I live in now.
Most of the ones I loved in my family is gone now. There is nothing really holding me here any more. It won't be like it was with the pioneers where they had to wait months for letters to go back and forth to loved ones. It won't take months or weeks of travel to see family in another state. We will be able to talk and video chat thanks to the internet and phones so we will have a lot of ways to stay in contact with the loved ones we are leaving behind. In that area of life we will have it so much better than the pioneers did.
But the fact that life will be different than what I am use to, living some where that is new to me, learning to survive and thrive in a different kind of climate, meeting new people and learning their ways will all take some adjustment. In that respect I feel that I know how life must have been like for the pioneers when they moved west.
I do look forward to getting way from the long cold winters but worry how I will handle the long hot summers. I am going to miss having snow on Christmas day. I am going to miss seeing how the land wakes up after a long winter's nap and the rebirth I see all around me every spring. I am going to miss the beautiful reds, gold and yellow colors of the fall. Most of all I am going to miss the place I have called home for 56 years.
If you are wondering why a post like this in on a prepper's blog it's because it will be pretty much the same feelings we will have if a big major SHTF event happens. In a sense we will be starting over from scratch. Having to learn a new way of life. Learning to deal with a new type of people we don't know quite what to expect from. Learning skills that we never knew before. It will be a whole new way of life just like it was a whole new way of life for the pioneers when they moved west.
Stayed tuned as I keep you updated on my fears, my joys and the things I do to handle our starting over in a new life. Hopefully you will find a tidbit here and there of things that will help you when or if you have to start a new way of life if a big SHTF event in the future.
Prepping Granny